step right up

Everyone is seeing less of me this week!
2.4 lbs less of me to be exact.
What a great start to 2013.

after the weigh in and meeting (plus the jump start after meeting) i ate lunch at Subway.

this week I will focus on not using my weekly allotted extra points.
i want to stay within my daily points target.
see you next tuesday. or hopefully before.

maybe it's not my weekend, but it's gonna be my year!

Okay everyone.
New commitment.
Today (that is to say January 1, 2013) I will re-join Weight Watchers.
NO. lets not use that term "re-join". let's say ....recommit? nothing with re. it makes it sound like a huge failure.
How about ...
As of January 1, 2013, I will start the journey to my newer, smaller, healthier self. This journey will be made possible by the support system that is Weight Watchers 360.
I am so excited about this. I am confident that if I use the tools I will be given and attend at least one meeting a week and follow the plan, I will see results. WE will see results.

hand in hand we can walk into the next phase of my healthier life.

break me off a piece

Oh KitKat Minis, how I hate to love you. I just can't quit you. Clearly I've slipped into a major vice/red light food/might as well be heroine addiction.
I will leave out the intimate details of how many I've consumed in the last 72 hours...
Let me just mention that it's more than 4 and less than, say, the entire bags contents...
Of this I am not particularly proud. I have started to note my consumption in an iPod App called "Lose It". I intend to track everything I eat and stay within a certain calorie count each day.
Luckily, the Kitkat Mini's I bought the other day, are almost extinct in my little corner of the world (my orange halloween pumpkin stash). Remind me/hit my hand/make me swear I wont purchase that bag every again. This is just rediculous.

it's not all about me. but it should be.

I'm starting to think that change like this (weight loss) only comes when you don't say it outloud. kinda like a birthday candles wish. do you think? that way you can be sure that it is for you and only you that you are changing.
i cant seem to motivate myself just because i've told people. also, just because i went to weight watchers all those years with mom, didnt mean it was FOR ME. it feels like i was going all those years because mom felt that she couldnt do it alone (honestly, not that she was doing it with me there either) and she needed someone with her. so i was going through the motions to support her. wasting the money each month to stay signed up, all the while continuing my bad food habits.
i finally came to the realization a while back that weight watchers wasnt going to work for me for those plain and simple reasons. my heart and my head weren't in it.
i cannot change my body until i find a way to 1)honestly, deep down want to 2) make it about me and nobody else, and 3) bite the bullet and do all those things i know to do in order to lose the weight.
life is complicated. and quite simple. when you think about it.

Hot Hot Heat

Well, the heat is kicking my butt, and NOT in a way that is pretty. Tonight, I sit in front of the fan on the floor, with laptop on a lap desk. It is reportedly 92 degrees out there. Luckily, there is little to no precipitation for my body's sake. Although, on the other hand, there is a red alert heat advisory in place in western (most of) Washington. With temperatures so high and humidity down, anything can spark a fire. Saturday and Sunday are set to be thunderstorms. GREAT. More chance of fire.
Today I had breakfast diet coke, and then went to knitting at the senior center where I drank a bottle of water. YES, I had water! For lunch, I went to Finaghty's Pub and had a bacon Caesar salad. That was great (with another two glasses of diet coke). I finally skipped the fries at that restaurant. I always go in with the idea to skip the fries, but they are always too tempting, until today. It was too hot to have hot and heavy potatoes weighing me down.
Mom is making peach pie. No clue yet what i'll find for dinner. I did have a scoop of store bought potato salad earlier.
I will most likely stop at McDonalds tonight for a diet coke mostly because it will be a hot car ride to pick up my sister from work. I'm sure she'd appreciate the cold beverage. :)

"...it has always been entirely up to you."

“Don't take my advice. Or anyone's advice. Trust yourself. For good or for bad, happy or unhappy, it's your life, and what you do with it has always been entirely up to you.”

― Nicholas Sparks
(THE BEST OF ME)

I had to make a CONSCIOUS effort to refrain from stopping at McDonalds this morning for a $1.09 Diet Coke. It was so hard, but I came right on home to my slimfast breakfast protein shake. It doesn't snuggle me quite like the fizzy diet elixir of my life, but I decided that's what I was going to do, and this time I actually did it.

Seeing as how I have to think things through first in order to make them actually a reality, I think I will have some water next and then for lunch...well, i'll have to see what's in the fridge.

The hours of 2-6 are safe today due to my nannying job. I realize that when i'm helping others, I feed myself less. While nannying, I feed the kids, but rarely partake. They have nasty water where they live, so I have to bring my own in, but that is fine. I love our water here.

Today's challenge will definately be making something out of nothing in the fridge. I know for a fact that Sam has Hot Pockets in the freezer, but NOBODY feels 1) satisfied or 2) good about their lives after eating a Hot Pocket. I will definately steer clear of those.

There are some frozen chicken tenders that I can do something with..?

Here I go into the adventure that is August 14th.

next adventure with food will be peanut butter fudge made with saltine crackers.
i cant imagine why this works but it had good reviews