I'm BACK

Today Mom and I started WW (Weight Watchers) again. I'm feeling really good about this.
This morning right before joining, I was on the elliptical for 25 minutes sweating away. It was AWESOME!
My weight was such a wake up call.
Tonight while I was left with little to no calorie allotment for the day, I found myself staring into the jaws of the candy dish across the room (which, remind me, I need to now hide or donate to "the wolves"(dad's co-workers) when I realized in a moment that I did not want those heath bars and mounds bars, but what I wanted was to be able to control that watering of the mouth, know I can't stop as soon as I start feeling. I recognized that these candies are a red light food for myself, so I immediately went to the kitchen and cut up an apple and let me tell you, it was actually delicious and worked. I can now look to the candy dish knowing that my apple was so much more food than a measly little bite-sized candy bar. Had I eaten even just one of those sweets, I wouldve realized that after about two bites, my evening of snacking would be over. Having eaten the apple, I spent more time enjoying the juicy goodness of its filling food self and was quite satisfied.

there's got to be something terribly wrong with me. Why is it so hard to change myself? ugh. I have all these GREAT ideas about chaning things in my life, but never seem to follow through with them.
just today, i noticed in a moment of clarity, that there are five (FIVE!!) soda take out cups in my trash in the room. THIS has to stop. I've stopped drinking diet sodas because i dont want to be putting aspartame in my body, but now look at all the sugar that is going in still...
gross.
maybe this has turned into a complain about myself blog. i dont know, but whatever it is, hopefully i will start to let it help me.

You know that show "how i met your mother"? well, on one of the episodes, they call it "the last cigarette ever" but they dont stop then, and then the next time they try to quit, they call it "the last cigarette ever" and it keeps on like this until they finally do eventually quit.
THATS how i feel about trying to stop drinking soda. It's like "last cigarette ever" syndrome mixed with "i'll start that diet on monday" syndrome. I always want to get in just one more and start next time.

BUT!....

The advantages of hot hot heat days is that you WANT to drink all the water you can possibly consume in hopes of cooling down even a tiny bit.
Today wasn't as sweltering. Here's hoping tomorrow and the next days are nice and regular 70-80 days.

ew. it's too hot outside. AND inside.
yesterday was like 91, today is like 100. HOOOTTTTT
ugh.
ew. im ready for 65-70 again.
i promise i'll appreciate the cool next time it comes.
pinky swear.

day 7

i made it through to day 7! day 7 ended at the ECLIPSE midnight showing, so i got a soda (not diet) and waited until midnight so that it was officially past day 7. yay me. with my celebratory mr pibb and my beauties in ECLIPSE, last night was wonderful.

Day 6

Here it is. Day 6 already. Remarkably, the past five days have been easy. Ice water is what has helped. I am so proud of myself. This past saturday, I went daycamping with some friends and there was an entire cooler full of sodas that were there for the taking and I DIDN'T partake.