aweful day two.
i will make it quick.
i have to spit this out or i'll never do it.
morning: shared fries with sam and had a ice cream cone. on the road.
afternoon: pear, two pieces of strawberry jam/butter toast.
evening: white chocolate pretzels. fudge, cookies.
water
crystal lite
apples
thats all. ALL, i know. wow. i cut out cute little stars today to glue on my calendar for every day that i exercise.
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
just call me leroy brown...
cause today's eating was BAD BAD...ugh. why do i do this? why?
this morning i woke at eight but didnt eat until 1pm when mom and i had angus burger meals at mcdonalds with diet cokes. we went to visit with my grandparents in kirkland for a while and then headed to pick up my sister from work then we went home. at home i didnt eat anything. at about 8pm i met with a few friends at dennys and split half of an appetizer plate with one of the friends (she only ordered half the plate in the first place, so i guess it wasnt THAT bad) and i just had water to drink. a lot of it.
okay, so now that i've put it all down...WAIT! i remember why i thought today was terrible!
i had TWO candy bars today. a reeses fast break and a kit kat bar. oink oink ash, oink oink. at least i had water today.
another thing i noticed, was that i am getting uncomfortable sitting in booths at restaurants. THIS HAS TO STOP. THE BEING BIG PART. i have to be able to fit nicely in the booth with friends. ugh. that was my ugly truth moment of the day.
this morning i woke at eight but didnt eat until 1pm when mom and i had angus burger meals at mcdonalds with diet cokes. we went to visit with my grandparents in kirkland for a while and then headed to pick up my sister from work then we went home. at home i didnt eat anything. at about 8pm i met with a few friends at dennys and split half of an appetizer plate with one of the friends (she only ordered half the plate in the first place, so i guess it wasnt THAT bad) and i just had water to drink. a lot of it.
okay, so now that i've put it all down...WAIT! i remember why i thought today was terrible!
i had TWO candy bars today. a reeses fast break and a kit kat bar. oink oink ash, oink oink. at least i had water today.
another thing i noticed, was that i am getting uncomfortable sitting in booths at restaurants. THIS HAS TO STOP. THE BEING BIG PART. i have to be able to fit nicely in the booth with friends. ugh. that was my ugly truth moment of the day.
Monday, January 4, 2010
driving away from the wreck of the day
Play by play.
breakfast: i was asleep until 12 and went to pick up sam, so nothing.
lunch: beef mexi platter from taco time. consists of beef taco, beef crisp burrito, beans, lettuce, chips and a few mexi fries. diet coke.
snack: 1 cookie, three small pieces of fudge, peanut brittle, diet root beer
after taking sam to babysit in the evening, i watched some tv and thumbed through a library book about domesticity until 930 and then read from a novel until sam called saying she was ready to be picked up. on our way home, she stopped at the store and got me a diet coke and she got chocolate milk.
no dinner (at least formal dinner) was had today.
i sucked in my stomach probably a dozen times today. it was rainy/wet/cold today so i didnt get myself outdoors to go on a walk. i played mario brothers wii with my sister instead. lame substitute. it was nice to remember to suck in. i felt very powerful in doing so because for the first time ever, i sucked in my stomach because I wanted to and not because my mom was telling me i should (though i'm sure she'd be happy to let me know i should be doing it often anyway).
anyway.
that was today.
now im going to read and go to sleep. tomorrow i might knit some socks. or sew a purse. you never know. I never know...
breakfast: i was asleep until 12 and went to pick up sam, so nothing.
lunch: beef mexi platter from taco time. consists of beef taco, beef crisp burrito, beans, lettuce, chips and a few mexi fries. diet coke.
snack: 1 cookie, three small pieces of fudge, peanut brittle, diet root beer
after taking sam to babysit in the evening, i watched some tv and thumbed through a library book about domesticity until 930 and then read from a novel until sam called saying she was ready to be picked up. on our way home, she stopped at the store and got me a diet coke and she got chocolate milk.
no dinner (at least formal dinner) was had today.
i sucked in my stomach probably a dozen times today. it was rainy/wet/cold today so i didnt get myself outdoors to go on a walk. i played mario brothers wii with my sister instead. lame substitute. it was nice to remember to suck in. i felt very powerful in doing so because for the first time ever, i sucked in my stomach because I wanted to and not because my mom was telling me i should (though i'm sure she'd be happy to let me know i should be doing it often anyway).
anyway.
that was today.
now im going to read and go to sleep. tomorrow i might knit some socks. or sew a purse. you never know. I never know...
Sunday, January 3, 2010
one day at a time
i am truly tired of telling you every day that it wasnt my best. my life is in a funk right now, which is NO excuse, it just helps me veer off the course more often. anyway, the question is "what am i going to do about it?" right? i am committing to doing SOME sort of activity tomorrow, be it 15 minutes on the exercise bike, a walk around the block or a bunch of crunches on the ab roller. something will get done tomorrow and i'll tell you about it.
today was nice. i woke at 11 and slowly got ready for church, which as of the new year got switched from 9am to 1pm. so nice. i was refreshed and awake for church for once. i enjoyed every minute of it. after church, i came home and had some dip and veggies. i made sure to eat a lot of broccoli so as to get in my greens. i then made some chicken strips and had a soda.
the evening was spent at a friend's house playing board games all night and drinking lots of ice water. it was good for me to get in the water. i peed a lot, which was also a good sign.
after gamenight, i am embarrassed (a little) to say, my sister and i went through....THE DRIVETHRU. i had to go to the store anyway to get some oil for the van, so we were already "in town" and she wanted some fries. i got the mcchicken again with no mayo, small fry and a small diet coke. yum. i do love having chicken in my belly.
the other day i noticed that i never suck in my stomach like our moms used to say when things werent fitting just right or we were slouching. why doesnt mom ever say that anymore? am i beyond sucking in my stomach? i think not. i am going to try and do it as much as i think about it tomorrow, because it couldnt hurt. it might be quite an effort because i havent done it in a while. this is sad.
i dream of having awesome stomach muscles.
i am going to make it happen.
one day at a time.
today was nice. i woke at 11 and slowly got ready for church, which as of the new year got switched from 9am to 1pm. so nice. i was refreshed and awake for church for once. i enjoyed every minute of it. after church, i came home and had some dip and veggies. i made sure to eat a lot of broccoli so as to get in my greens. i then made some chicken strips and had a soda.
the evening was spent at a friend's house playing board games all night and drinking lots of ice water. it was good for me to get in the water. i peed a lot, which was also a good sign.
after gamenight, i am embarrassed (a little) to say, my sister and i went through....THE DRIVETHRU. i had to go to the store anyway to get some oil for the van, so we were already "in town" and she wanted some fries. i got the mcchicken again with no mayo, small fry and a small diet coke. yum. i do love having chicken in my belly.
the other day i noticed that i never suck in my stomach like our moms used to say when things werent fitting just right or we were slouching. why doesnt mom ever say that anymore? am i beyond sucking in my stomach? i think not. i am going to try and do it as much as i think about it tomorrow, because it couldnt hurt. it might be quite an effort because i havent done it in a while. this is sad.
i dream of having awesome stomach muscles.
i am going to make it happen.
one day at a time.
Aim For Success
"nothing happens for naught. Everything comes up for a reason"
"by small and simple means, proceedeth that which is great"
these are two things i heard spoken this week and they were a little helpful in inspiring me to start anew this year.
this morning at my weigh-in, i learned (or heard for the eighteen thousandth time) that in order to get what i want i have to be clear on what i want. more often than not we find ourselves talking more about what we dont want than what we do want. by writing it down (and what a perfect time to be writing down goals than the first of the year), it becomes real, we can see and know what exactly it is that we want and come back to it to remind ourselves of that goal.
this week i need to reach into my soul and pull out what i want, not what i dont want. and i need to write it down somewhere where i can go to it easily.
i also need to CLEARLY define what it is that i want. use specifics and times, dates, places, people, sizes.
next i will need to make sure that what i want is something I CAN (and WILL) do, not something someone else would have to do.
lastly i need to make it fit in my life. be sure that what it is i want can be part of my lifestyle NOW.
i thought about it today while in my room thinking through things and i have decided that my overall weight goal is a bit daunting to think about in terms of "what is your goal for this week". my goal that i will be setting in front of myself is 5 lbs. i can lose 5 lbs. i WILL lose 5 lbs.
a man by the name of Gary R. Blair said
may the week bring happiness and success to all who are struggling through something in their life.
today was fast. i woke late after having gone back to sleep upon arriving home from the weight watchers meeting at 8am. mom and i had some veggies and dip for lunch and into the afternoon while we watched some movies and enjoyed time together drinking diet cokes.
for dinner, i didnt have anything green...i heated up some frozen chicken strips and had them with bbq sauce while i played video games with my sister.
work on water!
work on water!
work on water!
this needs to be a mantra of mine. i love water, i do, i just find it hard to fit in right now. and there is no excuse for this.
"by small and simple means, proceedeth that which is great"
these are two things i heard spoken this week and they were a little helpful in inspiring me to start anew this year.
this morning at my weigh-in, i learned (or heard for the eighteen thousandth time) that in order to get what i want i have to be clear on what i want. more often than not we find ourselves talking more about what we dont want than what we do want. by writing it down (and what a perfect time to be writing down goals than the first of the year), it becomes real, we can see and know what exactly it is that we want and come back to it to remind ourselves of that goal.
this week i need to reach into my soul and pull out what i want, not what i dont want. and i need to write it down somewhere where i can go to it easily.
i also need to CLEARLY define what it is that i want. use specifics and times, dates, places, people, sizes.
next i will need to make sure that what i want is something I CAN (and WILL) do, not something someone else would have to do.
lastly i need to make it fit in my life. be sure that what it is i want can be part of my lifestyle NOW.
i thought about it today while in my room thinking through things and i have decided that my overall weight goal is a bit daunting to think about in terms of "what is your goal for this week". my goal that i will be setting in front of myself is 5 lbs. i can lose 5 lbs. i WILL lose 5 lbs.
a man by the name of Gary R. Blair said
a goal is created three times.
first as a mental picture.
second, when written down to add clarity and dimension.
and third when you take action towards its achievement.
may the week bring happiness and success to all who are struggling through something in their life.
today was fast. i woke late after having gone back to sleep upon arriving home from the weight watchers meeting at 8am. mom and i had some veggies and dip for lunch and into the afternoon while we watched some movies and enjoyed time together drinking diet cokes.
for dinner, i didnt have anything green...i heated up some frozen chicken strips and had them with bbq sauce while i played video games with my sister.
work on water!
work on water!
work on water!
this needs to be a mantra of mine. i love water, i do, i just find it hard to fit in right now. and there is no excuse for this.
Saturday, January 2, 2010
it's a brand new day
today i slept in late because i was up until 230am driving back home from picking up my sister, but anyway. i slept in and woke at about 1pm. my family then went to fred meyer and walmart and the dollar store because they needed a few things and my sister had a gift certificate burning a hole in her pocket. that was fun. we stopped at taco bell and i had two chalupas and a beef taco without sour cream. im really not a fan of white creamy sauces. ever. thats a great thing. i didnt have as much GREEN as i wouldve hoped to choose. i did notice that the place had green beans. maybe next time. i was aware of what i was doing though.
tomorrow morning at 730am (eek, thats early considering it's 2am now) my sister and i are going to go weigh in at weight watchers before she has to be to work at 9am. we've been with weight watchers for a good year now, not that you'd be able to notice...oh well, it's a brand new day. i am finding myself more aware of what ive been putting in my mouth. another step closer to figuring this all out.
next step, incorporate excerise into my day. even if it is sooo cold outside. and wet. it shouldnt matter. nothing should be getting in my way of helping me feel better about myself. nothing. and no one.
tomorrow morning at 730am (eek, thats early considering it's 2am now) my sister and i are going to go weigh in at weight watchers before she has to be to work at 9am. we've been with weight watchers for a good year now, not that you'd be able to notice...oh well, it's a brand new day. i am finding myself more aware of what ive been putting in my mouth. another step closer to figuring this all out.
next step, incorporate excerise into my day. even if it is sooo cold outside. and wet. it shouldnt matter. nothing should be getting in my way of helping me feel better about myself. nothing. and no one.
Happy New Year Ashley!
Youre right, this is technically the second, but im reporting in on New Years Eve. so pretend this is December 31st 2009.
this day consisted of dip and veggies and some pita chips and bread rounds. i woke at about noon and had a BLT without mayo for lunch/breakfast time. then came the veggie dip snacking. all day. i figured since i was going to be snacking all day, i'd have some green on every plate i ate from. i had lots of broccoli and cucumber. it was delicious. mom and i went to the store for snacks for the evening and we didnt even buy chips. it was really powerful. we did get diet sodas and pita chips for the dip, and sparkling cider for the midnight thing, but we are making sure to always have something vegetable/green/fruit on our plate whenever we sit down to eat something. i think this will work nicely.
this day consisted of dip and veggies and some pita chips and bread rounds. i woke at about noon and had a BLT without mayo for lunch/breakfast time. then came the veggie dip snacking. all day. i figured since i was going to be snacking all day, i'd have some green on every plate i ate from. i had lots of broccoli and cucumber. it was delicious. mom and i went to the store for snacks for the evening and we didnt even buy chips. it was really powerful. we did get diet sodas and pita chips for the dip, and sparkling cider for the midnight thing, but we are making sure to always have something vegetable/green/fruit on our plate whenever we sit down to eat something. i think this will work nicely.
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