christmas is coming, the goose is getting fat

well today was terrible. well TODAY wasnt terrible, I was. i didnt eat well today, but i DID get some veggies in when i had a veggie fit hit bowl at taco time. i am no closer to overcoming my addiction to food than i was yesterday or last week for that matter. today did not help anything. i was lazy and i had a bunch of carbs.
this blog will be all about my honesty as far as what i did with food each day (even though it will be absolutely boring to anyone but me when they read it) so i have to say that this morning i didnt eat until about noon when mom and i were out shopping and we had lunch in the drivethru at mcdonalds (that word comes up a lot, mcdonalds, i know...) i couldve and SHOULDVE chosen something nice and healthy because there are a few choices that would be preferable and helpful in my journey, but no, i chose chicken nuggets and fries and diet coke. i am terrible. today i do not feel good about myself or my food choices. and christmas is in two days. great.
i think i want to have a goal of 25 lbs off by my birthday. that will be may 25th. good luck.
okay, then after lunch, we came home and i had a cheese stick and ritz crackers (which as the day went on, turned into an entire tube of the ritz crackers and 2 cheese sticks total). my sister and i met my parents (after work) at taco time where i had the diet cokes and the fit hit bowl (rice, cabbage, corn, black beans, salsa. good) for dinner. it was good and healthy. at least i found SOMETHING good to eat that was good for me today.
i know my blogging must sound like i am just complaining about myself and that i am talking about how i eat all this bad stuff. okay, i DO eat bad stuff, that makes me human. and fat. but i really Do want to change, thus the blog. i will try my best to be better and report everything as it happens if you promise not to judge me for my bad days. because i certainly have bad days. more lately than good ones.
and i also finished my christmas truffles. there were six of them with bites taken out of them, but i finished them off today. at least theyre gone now.
christmas is in two days. wish me luck with the snacks, treats, food and drinks.