humpty dumpty had a great fall

this last wednesday, i stopped doing the morning exercise thing for a while because last thursday my mother fell and broke her leg. i am now devoting my time to making my mother happy and comfortable. dad works during the day and so does my sister, so my not having a job has landed me in helper/caregiver position. it is a lot of work, so i figure i'm getting in enough exercise all day long. life has its trials and this is just another one of my many personal tragedies. ive not had time enough to think about what im eating. i serve up meals for mom all day and i try to keep she and i on a pretty balanced diet.

kick it up a notch

so i havent been seeing much as far as results. AT ALL. while biking for the past month or so every morning.
not that ive changed my eating much. which is probably a huge factor in that as well, but TODAY, i decided to start kicking it up a notch each day or every other day on the elyptical for as long as i can go AND do the regular biking time.
today when i was on the elypitcal (not sure that spelling), i FELT it. thats what i want. i want to feel it. i want to know that something is happening. kicking it up a notch may be just what i need. i'll stick with it and let you know.

wanted : will power

why do i let food control me?
if you have the answer to stopping that food from talking to you, please let me know.
this week, whoppers are yelling at me. EAT ME ASHLEY. YOUVE LOVED ME BEFORE AND YOU'LL LOVE ME AGAIN AND FOREVER. JUST A FEW PIECES.
once i start eating whoppers i cannot find a way to stop quickly.
i want to have power over food.
will power needed.