seeking motivation

I am finding it extremely hard to stay focused and motivated lately. This is nobody's fault but my own. I should be able to stay focused just because I want to be healthy and feel great and be able to not have aches anywhere. I need to find something that will motivate me to get this weight off for ME.
I weigh in tomorrow and because of scheduling issues, i've missed two weeks now. I feel as though i've gained ten pounds. I'm hoping this is not the case, but I will definitely get some results tomorrow. Good or bad. Feedback.
I do need to mention that I started up walking in the morning with a friend from church last week. we have been doing weekdays then off on Saturdays and Sundays. It's been fun having a walking buddy. I've also started taking vitamin D, Calcium and a multi-vitamin. So, I guess I cannot say that I haven't been making progress. I have been constantly thinking about the choices i've been making. I know for a fact that I need much more fruits veggies and milks in my diet. I have been eating rather crappy these past few weeks. Actually, just lately in general.
My desire is to start my days out with yogurt and granola with berries. Lunchtime should be a big salad with chicken/meat on it/chickpeas. dinner should be veggies, meat and a carb serving. If I had my druthers. Which I could, I just need to purchase said items in order to MAKE this my desired diet.
I guess it all comes down to my efforts.
I hate learning that it is me who is stopping my own progress...

25 on the 25th

Well, I WAS going for 25 lbs by the 25th which also happens to be my 25th birthday.
BUT
I don't think I'm going to make it. Last week I weighed in as 20.6 total loss. It would be a miracle if I made the 25 mark tomorrow at weigh in. Though TECHNICALLY, If I weighed in at 25 next monday, I would have lost the 25 BY my birthday on the 25th.
We'll see. I'm doing my best.

i did a bad thing tonight. i ate when i was sad. BUT, i recognized that i was doing it.
tonight a friend of mine said something that sort of offended/made me sad, so when i came home, i sorta pouted about it and then ate a snack sized kit kat.
and the terrible thing is....i feel a tad bit better.
what IS IT about food?
it is evil.
just when i think i've got control over my eating (i only ate veggies and drank crystal lite-ish drink tonight at my party) i go and end off the day with a treat? hmmm.

20 pounds

Hey there folks! I know, it's been some time.
BUT I have excellent news!
This week (today) at Weight Watchers, I was down .2 for a GRAND TOTAL weight loss so far of 20 pounds!
It seems I hovered around 20 for a few weeks. BUT today I was finally down that exact .2 lbs for my next 5 lb star award. only.......to go.
this was a great day/week. Now the next thing I need to buy is a new skirt for church. Mine is too large. YAY. that has rarely ever happened to me. Buying clothing because things were too big for me...I could get used to this.

I've been sleeping a lot better lately and I'm convinced that it might be because I've taken 20 pounds off.

"But Pickles" Monday

Every Monday, after weighing in at Weight Watchers, mom and I go to Subway for lunch. I get the same thing each week.
6" wheat veggie delite sub
Miss Vickie's Jalapeno Potato Chips
Diet Coke

Each week, I order this and I say "I'd like everything BUT pickles" when she asks what veggies I want.
So i've deemed Mondays my BUT PICKLES mondays. lol. It's the little things in life.
OH
and
This week, my total weight loss so far is 19.4 lbs. yay!

Today while walking through Target, I noticed that a bag of dogfood is 17.5 lbs and i've lost 17 lbs, so I picked it up.
I'm impressed.