today wasnt better than yesterday, but it was different. i woke at noon and watched some movies and ate some christmas cookies....this isnt sounding like a lose weight journal, its sounding much like a gluttony journal. ugh. at 5, i picked up my sister from work and we went with 5 other friends to barnes and noble because there was apparently some sort of sale and a few of them had gift cards that were burning holes in their pockets. you know, books are an addiction as well...for them. and sometimes me too... anyway, after books we went to the olive garden for dinner. sam and i split the chicken parmesan and had salad and ...a few breadsticks. it was good. i also had my diet coke and water. spending time with these friends was awesome. when i came home this evening, i had some peanut brittle. im so glad some of the foods ive been eating are seasonal. that means i'll get to be without them.
i really need to just figure out how to eat to live, not live to eat. i dont WANT food to rule my life. i want to be able to do things all day and never think about WANTING food. i want to have to remember that i need food, not remember to stop. ugh. life is hard.
i have to find that perfect balance between eating and not eating.
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